You ......

My breath was uneven,dry throat,shivering hands,sagging morale and i was a living corpse or a dying man. Alone all alone in the vastness of horizons, which never culminate, encompasses me a tale of melancholy.
She left me , should i say this or blame it to my destiny or time. Or may be my mettle wasnt enough for her. The memoirs are killing, i pursue, i run around amidst the wall sided house of my personality. The strong, heated walls of my "self" stop me. I want to jump out, lay unguarded, lost in the bewilderment of the torrents of storms and amidst the soot of night. Alas i am caged . The iron cage of consciousness. The cage with the food of thoughts ,which makes u ponder, which makes u think beyond , which makes u visualise the unseen, which propels u to live, for some unknown good. She was a phenomena , as far as i perceived. A streak of fragrance. I used to feel it. But she wanted the mass, the mass of filthy humane existence. Soul wasnt to suffice her, and there did it hit, such a blow that the life ceased. No mass, no soul all apart.
Yet i exist, with every setting sun i await the darkness, the emptiness of life. I start to visualise the ether. The world couldnt be any beautiful, forms start taking place, streams emanate, music cascades and there...Yes man , there u can see some great life in the vast empty sky. Ultimately i feel something , close my eyes, i feel the same magic . What's the truth. Hey , its all inside me .
I am the abode of entire cosmos . Isnt it? See the vastness of the darkness from my closed eyes, no start no stop. The stretch goes sine die. There do i stand , mesmerised by my own existence and there do i find the fragrance. The same which she had. But i dont find any she. Am i in some illusion? I rub my closed eyes, oh i do exist, yeah , i pursue the incense , its the same aura. I feel u , in , around , above , below everywhere. Hey , u r nobody and u r everybody, u exist everywhere and u exist nowhere. U r my own creation. Miamore , u r my creation and u live in me. U reside in me , my mind is ur home. My feelings ur thoughts , my expressions ur dress and my imagination ur experience. U r lovely, here it goes , here ends the mirage , U n me , made for each other. I exist to vindiacate ur existence. The closed eyes and the opened insight. Yes , there did i find u , my real soul mate . The breath goes on , the heart keeps beating, The sun rises and sets and the life goes on... Me , myself and the " YOU".....